I am exhausted, having a new baby in the house has left me exhausted and acting like 1/2 of my brain cells are missing. At least twice I have put my 
shirt on backwards and worn it outside of the house that way, and today I put my yoga pants on the wrong way and started to walk out of the house but noticed my error. Often, I forget what I am going to say or can’t remember why I came into a room. I often leave the house with the girls and have to come back in to get something, not once but twice. Sometimes I feel like a drunk! Oh how I wish for a nice cold beer or a rum and diet coke, but that pesky breastfeeding stops me from consuming alcohol.
Now it seems like everyone needs something from me too, the cats want to be fed (how rude of them) or Lily needs help getting dressed and Abigail, oh boy she needs help with everything because she is a baby and my husband asks the most annoying questions like “what do you want for dinner”. =) I swear!
When Lily was a baby (4 1/2 years ago) I will admit that I was sleep deprived but at least I still had my wits about me. Now, that I am older my body is handling this lack of sleep a little bit differently. I wake up in the middle of the night at least twice to feed Abigail, and when I finally get back to sleep is it only a few short hours until it is time to get up and start my day, but I feel like my day never ends and thus it never really begins again. I have no idea how people with more than two kids get all their crap done. I am my own worst enemy really because I like to have a clean house and I like to have the laundry done so I am constantly cleaning and doing chores, I know I’m crazy.
One day I will get my sleep back, probably not until the girls are old enough to hang out with their friends more than with me. You know that age, when you are supposed to not like your parents. But when that time comes I will be sad because I will miss holding them and helping them get through the day and I will want these days to return, yes these days when I feel drunk and exhausted.
