I always hear people talk about their life passion and how they follow their life passion and they make money. When I hear that I am jealous, how do they do that? If I follow my life passion then I will become a starving artist. In my 20′s, when I lived in San Francisco and attending Academy of Art college it was ok to be a starving artist, going to drawing class, computer labs, taking pictures and having a great time ‘finding myself’. Well, I never finished my art degree because I became tired of being a starting artist and realized that the one thing I really wanted in my life was a family so I got married and had kids. So here I am, happy with my family life but honestly, there is something missing. As long as I can remember I’ve always had a passion for photography, always had a camera and entered contests from a young age.
After I got married but before the girls were born I continued pursuing my passion for photography and traveled around with Lou and took many photographs. I was published in People Magazine and won an award at the California State Fair and sold my Stock Photography. Those things showed me that I was on the right path. Then the girls came along and while I still took 100′s of pictures of the girls and photos at family gatherings with my point and shoot camera I put my big camera (Nikon D300) in the closet in it’s camera bag because it was just too hard to lug around with all the baby gear.
The past few months of my life (Fall 2011) have been a struggle for me and I’ve been questioning my path. Maybe it is that I am getting older and feel like I haven’t gone down the correct path BUT I have the family I’ve always wanted so what is the problem. I have a successful Virtual Assisting business and in fact I am on my way to becoming an Online Business Manager and the ability to grow my business even larger. This of course helps to pay the bills but something is missing, even Lou has noticed that the past few weeks I’ve been a little ‘lost’. Each day after I drop Lily off at school I’ve been thinking about what my problem is and all I want to do is grab my camera and go shooting or move to Florida and work for Disney or Nascar but then I bring myself back down to Earth, and go to my office and get to work for my clients.
However, I’ve decided that I need to do something to bring me out of this funk and get back onto my path. I’ve decided to get photography back into my life, maybe for just a few hours a week for now. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life but something is missing. I will be taking some online classes through Better Photo just help get me back into the game.
My soul soars when I am behind the lens, my heart beats faster when I’ve got some Blue Angels in my lens and I hold my breath when I see the perfect landscape. When I am driving the girls around town I am always looking around at the landscape around me and ‘framing’ shots in my mind, I used to think that everyone did this…haha nope just photographers do that.By following my passion of photography it will help me get back onto my path. Who knows really where the path will take me, guess that is the part of life that makes it all exciting. Maybe it will take me to Florida, maybe I will be published again, or maybe it will just bring me more joy which is all I really want.
